Getting out of in house S (9)

[vise82]

New thread. a lot should be happening as I move in a couple of months. Will be packing and splitting up house contents, S agreement will be signed.

Old thread: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubb...311#Post2666311


Hey Vapo,

Yes I do feel like less of a man because of the S. I have not told anyone at work because of this. I also feel there is no need to tell them as things will work out between us. But part of me (the star in me) thinks that is not the truth and I should be telling them. When I feel its time I will tell them.

Also I have been thinking about my family. I think I should have fought more to keep contact with them. W should not have asked me to choose between them or her. I could only fight that for so long until I came the same reasoning as W.

My family gave me a lot of GAL as there was always something going on with a big family. It also made me interesting. Again the star inside of me says I should contact them and at the same time have enforceable boundaries. Deep down I don't contact my family because it will make my W mad and she will think I don't love her by not following her wishes.

YOu are right she left. She wants a R with us S. She has not mentioned D. Sat night she chose to stay home with her family rather than go out to a party that she was invited to by her best girl friend. She told me she wanted to just stay home and had no interest in going. That is a change since BD. She told me them that she avoided coming home and I made her angry every time she walked into the door coming home.

Yes I see my kids as my family and with us moving to two housed its more apparent. W is making plans with the kids about decorating their rooms with out me involved. I realized That I need to do the same. The kids are calling my house the man house. For my birthday S7 picked out some flatware from the department store that W brought him to. I open the gift and he shows me the three bumps on the spoons and forks, saying each bump is for me, him and his brother. No mention of W. He understand this S better that I do.

I do feel like I will be ok with out W. The problem is that I don't want to be with out her.

My GAL is lacking right now. I plan on it picking up soon.