I appreciate your comments and support. I read through some of you situation and there are similarities. I think I will not pursue snooping as that could be wasted energy for me.
I wish I could be an unemotional rock somedays lately. lol It would help me function better. I guess the whole idea that men do not like to talk about emotions is not the same as us feeling the violence internally that emotions can bring eh?
I feel too, that I found this board and DR and Dbing all to late as well. Yesterday I had a tuff time when my D17 made mention that she saw this coming a couple of years ago. Wow did I feel dumb and blind. She saw issues that I missed. Although now as I play back my marriage, I see a million signs back to before we got married. But I know that is the mind trying to unravel this and it does no good and I have to live in the moment, make small plans for the future and stay focused on being a better man, father and better husband for the future.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
