Hi Huddy, sounds like you are doing well my friend. I find it a little bizarre that someone would consider spending that kind of money on surgery ahead of decent housing. It's a shame to feel that way about your body though.

I think you answered your own question about holding your course. However, I wouldn't play any games with the 'dating perception' thing - other than volunteering limited info about what you're doing and leaving your W to draw her own assumptions. If and when you feel the time is right to date, go for it. However, if you still love your W and hope to save your M, that time isn't here yet (IMHO.)

Hope the gym is going well and have a good Sunday! Xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus