But, weird... I feel it calls for a postscript... The whole dual personalities and trying to find the one which fits??
When we were married, I felt, A LOT, like he was always trying to sort out if he fit with me or the life his parents wanted for him. When he left, he chose the lifestyle and a woman much like his mom.
Always this feeling of him choosing... Me or the other lifestyle. Waiting to be the chosen one. Weird.
I can see it more clearly now. It's all about figuring out where you fit in the world, which is something you're supposed to do in your early twenties, right?
Cal is doing this. At 21. Somedays, she will text me about being the best mom ever. Next day, I can't believe you let me down about such-and-such. She is digesting her life, her parents, figuring out where she fits.
Matt got stuck there. He will be 50 next year and he is still stuck in this early twenties place.
You look hard at your parents... Sometimes you embrace them completely for who they are... you face the fact they are humans and imperfect... you confront where they messed up... you look at yourself and what you want and you find some collective blend of it all to create an adult life.
He seems so tormented by his parents and their influence. He went so far as to create a script for his daughter to use in order to appease his mother. That's weird. He's freakin fifty.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
