Mozza's own success story

[Mozza]

Quasi-weekly update.

The mediation is over. We have the signed agremment. Now it's up to STBX to contact the lawyer we chose last summer. Her father is visiting from abroad, so I expect some delays. I can't wait for the papers though. One less thing to deal with.

We had a bit of a tense (by our standards) email exchange about an insurance amount that ended up with her telling me "I think we've established that what's obvious to you isn't for me, so just tell me what you want. Thanks" Sounds like a burn, if the exchange was about what I wanted, but it was about clarifying insurance eligibility that came from her job... It would be petty to explain in details but I bring it up because it reminded me of things about her that annoyed me greatly when we were together, and as the pain of S dissipates, it sort of feels good to remember those things and feel that they are behind us (mostly). I also bring it up because I feel my DB-levels of patience wearing off with her. I remind myself that DBing is mostly about me and that I've nothing to gain from being difficult. I didn't reply to her email, by the way.

Oh, I've decided to suspend my IC sessions. It's been 1.5 year, nonstop, once a week. I simply feel that I'm in a good enough place now, that these sessions have given me tools to navigate my life, and that I can take a break for a few weeks or months. I plan to see him again though, when I feel the need.

I had lunch with ex-FIL. We didn't mention the S even once, except maybe when he said "Oh well, life goes on" when we parted ways. We talked about the kids, his business, my job, his travels, the world, etc. I think this annual meeting is appropriate.

Not much to report about New Girl. Everything is fine, we spend time together when we can, we get to know each other and to become more comfortable with each other. It could go either way and I'm still not sure if we'll be together forever, 10 years or 10 weeks. I try not to worry about it.