You will have ups and downs where your emtions, depression and focus on you and being a better dad will change daily and weekly.
Unless you are an unemotional rock....its just the way it is. I am going thru the divorce part now and haven't had our talk with our daughter yet (6) and its the hardest thing in the world. Since I have been on this board (which was too late), I have had weeks that were good and days/weeks that are not...lately...not good
It will take time unfortunately.
In terms of the EA/PA, I would be in the category of where I could not find a EA/PA for sure. It's not how things started but over time I swore after some snooping there was something going on. I still can't confirm there is but I am convinced that she had a long distance EA going on early on that kept her on the track of "I think we need to split up'. There is no logic to some of this and I do think sometimes an EA is a trigger to push things downhill unfortunately. Best of luck
_________________________ Me-48 Spouse-WAW 52 Married for 10 years D7 ILYBNILWY 7/15 Suspect EA/PA 12/15 No confirmation/denial She files 1/2016 Working towards the Big D ...still in progress....