Life's a Dance-One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

[melweb]

I agree... Interesting. Along those lines, my H seems to think he knows what is best for both of us.

So he fell off fence tonite. He is leaving in June. Thinks a separation is what we both need. He loves me, doesn't want a D, would like to hang out on holidays, and go out on Fridays for happy hour. I told him I could not guarantee that.

He knows I have been snooping, counting condoms and Cialis and been talking to a counselor. He said two can play that game. I said its not a game and I did nothing wrong. Also to know that he must have been snooping too, and got into my email.

This is just so hard. He's in, he's out, he's trying, he's leaving. I did not cry tonite tho. Its getting easier. How sad is that? I just said 'ok, I prefer if you stayed, but if this is what you need" I listened some more, he tried to joke... Wanted to know if I could get his groceries and still iron his clothes. I said "Um. No"

I then got up and left. The house. He asked where I was going and I said " a drive"

I am at the bookstore.