NYGal...Sotto makes a really good point. I know how badly you want W, but you are setting yourself up to be hurt. Your actions are telling her that you are plan B...that you are willing to accept any maltreatment she dishes out as long as you get her back in the end... You're telling her if you reconcile and someday she feels tempted to run off again with another OW because life has gotten routine and boring (as life is wont to do), that's OK, because you'll accept it. You are beautiful, smart, and amazing. You do not have to accept this from her. You do not have to accept this from *anyone.* It's fine to want W back, but never put yourself in the position of just waiting for her to run back to you to validate your existence. She has put you through a great deal of hurt and pain with her irresponsible actions, and although you might be willing to work through that, there needs to be consequences for what she's done. Otherwise, there is absolutely no motivation for her not to keep doing it over and over again.
You are top shelf. She does not deserve your graciousness, and she proves this over and over again by toying with your emotions going back and forth between you and OW. You have to value yourself before you can expect her to do so. Make her work for it!!
