While househunting, I had a few epiphanies. I had a good chat with my agent who's the h of my friend. I don't know him well but we managed to keep the conversation flowing.

And here is where I start to wonder what is wrong between xh and me that we could never converse like that? Judging from the thousands of texts he's sent the TP, he has no problem communicating. Why not with me then?

And I realise that somehow, and this is where I have to concede my fault, I just am not as charming as I could be when I am with xh as I am with other people. What is wrong with me or was it just the dynamics of the R?

I have basically flirted and goofed around with everyone except xh. But xh had made it really hard for any form of communication with his grunts and monosyllabic answers. He would always say that that is how he is.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.