Dates with gfs are kinda hard because most are married with young kids and any time I spend with them is time they are spending away from their families.

Xh keeps baiting me with the same worm and I keep biting. I really should have known better.

He keeps asking me for some of his stuff and I keep telling him that I am still looking for them. Every time I receive this bait, my heart starts going into overdrive because that was exactly what he had asked for, right after kid and I escaped the house.

He had not asked about us, but he had asked for his stuff back.

And he's made this same request a few times. Every time he asks for them, I start to feel quite sick because 1) I fear his anger, 2) I assume that he's going to marry the TP and wants his stuff back before he breaks the news. I am thinking that he's worried that he'll never get his stuff back.

Today, I have just about had it.I had to pass kid's stuff to xh and I went to look for xh and kid while they were at lunch and explained to him that I really couldn't find his stuff yet but I promised that once I did, I would pass it to him.

My stfu potion ran out and I told him not to worry because if I had wanted to destroy his stuff, I would have already done so.

I asked him if he needed me to move my boxes out of his place. I told him I could move them into storage first.

And this is the strangest thing ever. Xh panicked and said that he was just asking for his things back and that I didn't have to move them.

Xh was rather nice (as in not spewing and as civil as a normal person could be) but I was the rather annoyed one.

He did ask me to take a seat. I looked mortfied, don't ask me why but my face just decided on that expression at that very moment. I declined the offer cuz I remembered how having dinner with the xh gave kid false hopes. On hindsight, I could have joined them for lunch but that would screw kid's mind.

I left. And it was only after I left that I realised in horror that we had had the entire dialogue while I was standing and had just treated the restaurant to our dirty laundry? Somewhere out there is a piece of my missing brain.

Met xh again at a bookstore. I had gone back to the bookstore as I had left something behind on the counter. Xh did a quick detour to avoid me and I pretended not to see him as well.

Life will be better after I move.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.