WAW is angry and filing divorce

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Thank you trumpet for your sound advice and words of encouragement.
It helps sometimes knowing that I am not alone or crazy when others in similar situations share words of wisdom and make statement of reality. Sometimes I feel like I am trapped in a bad dream and can't tell where the nightmare ends and reality begins. So your feedback is really helpful this evening.
It;s weird that I will be fighting for our marriage for sometime, but want the divorce to be finalized ASAP. I believe in marriage, but I need to escape the "crazy" now.

One of the toughest lessons I've learned is that I can't fix my broken WW. I love her, but she is her own circus, and her own monkeys. Being able to detach enough to watch the train wreck while it's in front of you, but not get hurt is very challenging.

I love this and will recall it each time I see the circus get started and I will picture monkeys in my mind. This will for sure keep me calm, and a smile in my heart that will keep me calm in the middle of the storm.

I am doing a 5k with D17 tomorrow and will look to plan something with bot of my girls as that will be awesome for all of us. My little one needs some attention as I noticed tonight being here at home alone with her. She is saying things now that make me know she knows more than any of us are giving her credit for.

Let God talk to you in your life. Hear Him whisper to you. You'll know you're on the right track when you hear Him whisper.

And this I needed to hear. I have had my issues in my relationship with God over my lifetime, but if ever there is a lesson in this ordeal, it is that I need to maintain a constant relationship through thick and thin and listen....quietly listen, because I need divine guidance to do what is right, have the strength to endure the challenge, and learn from my mistakes.

Thank you again trumpet for your kind and supportive words of encouragement.