I won't say that asking for legal separation is what I want but it has helped in a way to speed up detachment. H texted today saying that he couldn't drive as he's off work and got strong pain killers.
At the beginning I thought it was a prank as it's April's fool today, unfortunately it wasn't. I validated and said that I'll drop kids to him. When I saw him he was well drugged up and it didn't affect me like I thought it would. I guess it's what everyone calls detachment!
H texted and tried to call several times but it was related to house sale, so no big issues there. I'm under no illusion that OW will come to see him tonight but I'm fine with it. I can't see any baby steps from H, so I guess it's making it better or shall I say easier to detach. It's a shame that H isn't prepared to give our marriage a chance. Now I can look at our photos without feeling sad, crying or being angry. Although still went on OW FB page and I could feel the anger boiling like a volcano about to explode. So now I'm not going to check her out again. She is welcome to have him as he has been able to deceive,lie to me and I can honestly say that he WILL NOT change. He won't look about his share in the failure of our marriage and he certainly won't do the work he needs to have a healthy relationship with anyone. If she thinks he'll change with her, I think she is going to be chocked or maybe she will accept everything he wants just to keep him as she must know that if he cheated on me for so long, the same could happen to her.
