Getting out of in house S (8)

[vise82]

Hey Vapo,

I am waking up everyday and keeping it together. My Life as I know it is crumbling around me. I am doing my best to stay afloat. I find it is a fragile balance so yes for some stuff I have my head in my ass.

I am getting over the fact that all my neighbors know now. That the house has sold and that I am day by day trying to get to my new house on my own and I should be able to breathe and not worry what I do or say that might not be DBing.

I am not pleading about invites, I asked once if I was getting an invite because I need to know for work. I have not asked since. I talk about it on here because it bothers me and it is an issue for me. Better here then to my W.

The contacting my family I guess is an option but also a door I cant close once it open.

I am trying to be my best self, Live for the moments. Good moments add up to great memories. I am almost getting to a place that my limit is not getting invited to the wedding,. That if I am not invited how can she expect me to have any type of R with her. Not inviting me, it to me the biggest slap in the face right now. Its one thing to say hey we need to have a S. I need to have space to save our MR. To give it a chance we need to S.

Its another thing to say you are not my family and I am excluding you from this wedding and every person that is invited to the wedding means more to us than you do.

Maybe I have it all wrong today. maybe I have been doing it wrong all along. Maybe I cant think straight. I will have to see what tomorrow brings.