Thanks Gr8Dad and Zues. Can't tell you how much I truly appreciate the support.
Yesterday was a rough day. There was nothing in particular that W did or that I did that made it rough. I was just sad and wanted my W back.
Got home and enjoyed dinner as a family. After putting kids to bed, W and I watched some TV together and she snuggled into me. I had my arms around her and she held my hand. She cuddled with me in bed as well, but I screwed up and let her see that I wanted to ML. We didn't, but we did cuddle which is progress.
Today will be better. I feel good this morning and know that I am working on myself and getting myself in a better place. I WILL NOT PURSUE TODAY!!!!
That is by far my biggest problem. I am so torn because I was neglectful and inattentive in the past which led to her resentfulness.
I have no idea if she is communicating with OM still. If I find out that she is, I will react differently than I did in the past, but I also am working on building trust by not snooping. This is just such a disaster.
Me - 32 WW - 30 D 11, D 3, D 2 T - 9 years M - 8 years BD - 2/16
