Feeling lost

[srt]

Well I've had 2 days of GAL - spent some time with my brother who is visiting and did some hobbies. Missing my kids like crazy this week and finding it harder than ever. Any tips? - I've done all the tidying, sorting out and fixing I can think of yet still don't seem to feel any "inner confidence" or calm. I'm becoming more and more distressed as time goes on.

Have not had any contact from wife at all this week, going to wait until she initiates - she'll have to bring over the kids anyway at the weekend so that will be an opportunity. She has previously said in MC that she "is done" and "does not want to try at the marriage". However at last session she said she does not want to rush into anything or make any changes to current circumstances. I can only take this as a positive, but finding it very hard to stop building my hopes.

Going to try some validation and repaying compliments if they arise, it's funny because I thought I saw a sparkle in her eye the last few times we were talking. Trying to detach is difficult - I'm now interpreting it as in my head I've not to care what she does or where she goes, her decisions and mistakes are hers to make, BUT also to listen and be interested in what she has to say when we have contact.