Lostman, I hear you, it can be very up and down day by day. But your 2nd last post sounds like you're making progress. We're here from you so keep posting.

The good news I think is that you're in a much better spot at saving your marriage that I am. But if you don't act quickly in taking steps to save it, it will fail.

Have you considering seeing a MC?

Me37 W33
T:8 M:5
D3
BD 11/2015
EA+PA w boss 12/2015
S 3/2016

Im stronger because I had to be
Im smarter because of my mistakes
happier because of the sadness Ive known
and now wiser because I learned