Phase 2

[Pax_luv]

Hello there,
My last thread in newcomers was getting close to 100 and honestly I've been getting ready to jump over here to the MLC board for a while. I feel like I've graduated and am ready to play in the MLC big leagues. I hope you all take that as a compliment! I've been reading along with all of your sitch's for several months and I'm looking forward to join in on the ummm errr party?!?

I'll pop back a bit later to give some detailed history, but in the meantime, here's the brief low down:

My h and I have been physically separated for almost 10 months. Prior to that, things just went way down hill in the marriage. H quit work to fulfill his childhood dream to become an actor (didn't talk to me about it) kept saying he was going to live in LA so he could go on auditions, bought a Harley ( no discussion with me again), started going to therapy for death anxiety, became angry-man and tried dropping all his friends, eventually the heat came onto me.... And the rest is history. (Of course there's a ton more, but that's the gist.)

I was dying. The facade to keep on the happy- all is ok- face was too much. I lost my hair from stress ( full on alopecia). In June of 2015, I decided to move out temporarily to give h the space he needed. I would do ANYTHING to make it work and if that meant moving- so be it. Well, our trial sep wasn't so much of a trial because he openly started dating right away. Anyway, I received DB the day before i moved out and I've been following it ever since.

H and I see each other every week for about 30 seconds as we swap our dog. It's cordial. I'm pretty over it. I honestly have no desire to see him or speak to him, whereas months ago, my whole week was focused on that interaction.

Personally, I've worked really hard to get to a good place. I've read, read, read until my eyes bled. Went to self help seminars, listened to podcasts, meditated, exercised, reunited with friends, worked on my spirituality.. And the list goes on.

I'm posting today because I just signed a year lease for a new apartment. I know where I'm going to be living until April 2017. Wow! So surreal. As I was looking for my new residence, I wanted to find a place that was very un-feyth. I wanted a unique opportunity to experience something different and I found an awesome studio that overlooks the pacific. But at the end of the day, I found something that was more practical for me (and double in size with a garage!)I figure ease of living is more important than trying to show the world how different I am. Maybe I wanted a reaction from h... Not sure though.

Anyway, that's it for now. I look forward to interacting with you!