I received a message from my W last night. As it was my final night in the house, I think she felt sentimental about me leaving. I had been scarce with my communication all day but this upset me. Please read and give me your thoughts.
"Perhaps I shouldn't say this. But I feel sad. Really sad that you are spending your last night in our home. Your last night, and your family is not even there. I feel sad that we moved into that house with Erica as a baby. With hopes of having a happy family there, and feeling good about our futures. That house should have been everything we needed. Somewhere to call home. But for whatever reason it wasn't enough to keep up together. Anyway, that chapter is closing, and the end of an era is always sad, and naturally we both feel a massive sense of loss. But also a new chapter is new beginning. The one with a potential friendship, if we can find it in our hearts to always be kind to one another. The one that gives you the strength to be the best father those girls could ask for. For fulfilling their dreams of what a man is ... he should be a prince. And always a prince. A new career, a challenge to work towards. Something to help you prove to yourself that you have a purpose, you are relevant and useful in this big world. And for me, my heart will finally be free. I will not be harboring my doubts and worries about 'us' I will be living for me. And the children. Free and happy. Maybe you will like that person when you see her again. So... sleep well in our home tonight, confident in the knowledge that the next chapter could be ten times better, with a different outlook and a bit of focus. Night.... babe."
