Getting out of in house S (8)

[vise82]

Hey thanks for the great advise.

The dinner worked out well for me. I was able to be myself. Was confident. There was on instance where I hesitated. W just comes home and Kids are outside with me, they get into a group hug type thing and S7 call out for me to join them in the hug. I hesitated and looked at W and kids and said maybe later.

I wanted that hug but I have not tried again to hug her since months ago when I asked for a hug and was denied.

Kids played more outside and W and I sat on the porch together and talked a bit about taxes and a new neighbor came over and talked to us about selling the house quick. W offers to me that If I need money she just got approved for a credit card with a very large limit. I was tempted to say something but with her past credit history she will be in trouble. She was saying she needed to get all new furniture for her house. She has ran us into credit trouble twice before, and here she goes again.

I just said thanks if I need anything I will let you know.

Really it felt natural and like there was nothing wrong. We went to dinner and it was great, kids were good and I was interacting with W. Taking food off her plate,I was sharing my food with S4. They came out with a birthday cake, W got a dessert also. We ended up switching half way to try each other dessert. I was in the moment and it was really good.

We came home and I put the kids to bed and then W was watching TV where she watches it. She talks to me about her work and she will be working the weekend. Customer day. I always take the kids to it so they can visit. I mention I would take them. She says no don't bother there wont be anything for them. I said its ok I don't mind just so they can pop in and I can take them to a place that will be close anyway. She replies well they might like getting a donut there. I said ok well we will see.

She has been keeping me away from her work. I think that was for a show of her boss of how she is a single mom now and needed a raise. She got the raise. I will be bring the kids there and looking my best.

After that I just went to watch some TV where the other TV is to end the night.