Dear Job, just want to write to you, as my GAL activities, I got good idea and I actually did it - I travel alone to visit a Christian priest last week for Easter mass. I enjoy travelling alone, cook food for myself and go shopping, spending time for art exhibition all by myself. Do have female friends, but it is not so bad to be alone.
However something is wrong with me, I'm standing for 19 months and planning to keep on doing it. Thought I'm getting better, but these two days, I got angry with myself, I know husband is 180 opposite from the one I know. Just can't help myself of feeling devastated and hurt. Those bad words he said to me just like mantra playing in my head again. He is not worthy my love but the covenant is for better and worse... What do I do to cool down my head (Lord, help me)
I understand standing requires great patient (studied imLIN's post). The most awful feeling is the lies he told me before and during bomb dropped. I know him and he's got the avoidance personality, he was good at it. I just don't believe this man is the one I married.
Those bad feelings are coming back in two days, I'm overwhelmed by it. I appreciate that you ask/think about me.
Me 42 H 40 Kid 0 BD Sep. 2014 H moved out June 2015
