If I were a WAH (I'm not, the other way around), I would respond to seeing what I'm missing.
A woman who is fit, attractive, 'put-together' - as in nice clothes, wears dresses, smiling, flirty, warm. You should do these things for yourself, though - you want to feel pretty.
Part of getting your head around this is working from the inside out. No matter what - if this ends up blowing up or fusing back together, you must be stronger than you are now internally. Find out what makes you tick - how to deal with hurt, which is a primary emotion, to anger, which is a secondary, and how to deal with that anger. Recognize the triggers in your life and your discussions with him which lead to the hurt and anger, and find other actions and words that lead you to loving, kind, forgiving, graceful words and actions.
Find an anchor in your life besides your husband as well. For me, it's my faith. For others, its a hobby or your family. Find your anchor. You can do this - you were made for this!
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)