Made it through another day. Overall, yesterday was positive. We did text some (nothing about R) and she was the initiator. I didn't immediately respond to every text she sent. At one point she sent the following:
"I'm finally feeling like we are moving the the direction we always have wanted to...I feel like for the first time in forever I see a happy light of a very long tunnel"
She is looking for a new job and I helped her with her resume. She got some positive feedback on Monday/Tuesday and I know that she is getting positive feelings from that. I honestly am happy for her because she has been "stuck" at her job for a long time now. I did not really acknowledge the text above or jump to take it as she now sees a future with me in it. However, it did feel good to know she said we and wasn't afraid at what I might take from that.
We had a nice evening talking and drinking some wine with dinner after the kids went to sleep. I screwed up a bit (liquid courage I suppose) and pursued ML when we went to bed. She didn't show interest and I quickly stopped pursuing. I didn't show rejection/hurt feeling though which I will take as a positive from me since I would have clearly shown sadness at that just a couple weeks ago.
I won't be pursuing at all today....
Me - 32 WW - 30 D 11, D 3, D 2 T - 9 years M - 8 years BD - 2/16
