my wife is a waw! trying everything to save it!

[anime92]

I am not beating myself up over the past, if I have learned anything that would be that yesterday is done tomorrow is a blank canvas! I am focused on the future!

With that being said, she had told me that we were having the same fight over and over again and I honestly cannot remember what all these fights were about specifically, for me I always told her we weren't fighting we were just discussing something, never were they heated raised voices ect. I know that on occasion when I would get upset about something I would pull away and not talk for a period of time and she had told me that she didn't like that behavior as it reminded her of her mother. I never corrected that behavior, but now I can(at least try) and I feel if I do "no contact" or "going dark" that would remind her of this behavior. So as much as I have read about success with such methods I feel they would be detremental for me. I am not calling/texting her at all if we have contact she initiates it.

She has also said that I have been controling. I haven't thought I was, but when I look back I can see it. It's not like I wouldn't let her talk to guys or go out with friends but I would try to teach her things and try to express my feelings and the way I would say things may have made her feel pressured or guilty. Again I was ignorant to my behavior and now that I can see I can act in a new way I have always said I wanted to grow with her as well as grow old with her. This is my moment to truly grow.

I honestly wish I could ask her to explain again, but I know I cannot. I know for a fact there is no other man, regardless of my recent insecurities popping that thought in my head which I quickly squash and remove from my mind.

I feel that she trust me because we share a 1 bedroom apartment and she frequently walks around in her underware occasionally topless she covers her boobs with her arm but nonetheless I feel she would do this if she didn't still trust me in some way.