I know what you mean. I read of the other ww/waw and think that hey, I didn't do half the things they did. Most importantly, I didn't cheat.
We are willing to forgive our (x)hs for so much more than they are willing to forgive us for. And it really isn't fair, is it?
It really isnt fair, but lovely JJB, in our saner and more rational moments, we know that such is life. But as sane and rational we are, we still can't stop yearning for what could have been.
Perhaps the mindfulness meditation would come in helpful? Acknowledge the anger, the hurt and feel them. Know that even when you are feeling these emotions, you can choose not to let them get to you.
Some times I succeed. Most times I struggle.
We will come out of this stronger, somehow. One breath at a time.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
