Ok, so much for not snooping. I have just confirmed that my W is officially WW and is at least having one hell of an EA, if not a PA. She was writing to the full moon and saying that she wants to have a passionate life with OM, she wants him to miss her, he wants him to be open with her, so they can have an open loving relationship. She wants him to not be afraid of giving into his desires and she wants to have a life with him separate from me. She wants him to kiss her passionately. She wants to be OK financially. I AM SHAKING!! I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I JUST READ! I want the same things, but I want them with her. OK so here's the thing, he is married, him and his wife are seperated. I know his cousin and I'm gonna pump him for information on his switch. I want to leave so bad, but I don'the want to make a decision now because I am so angry and hurt... I love her, and am willing to do whatever it takes to get her back...but is it too late?...F***K ME...I can'tell believe this is my life... I don't get how just two days ago, she was telling me that she was just going to let us float along, to see if we will sink or swim...really? If you want a life away from me, why don't you just say so? Why do you wear our anniversary ring on your ring finger? Why tell me that we are getting an apartment together? She has never said that divorce is an option. Ever. I don't know...I just don't know...
