Wife has filed for divorce

[excile101]

I don't want to abandon them, just stay away for a while.

I have to now detach from my W and find myself again. I cannot do that whilst hanging around with that kind of hostility. My W says that I have some serious issues that I need to address. I do not know what she means and do not intend to ask her. She just keeps blaming me for everything. I will see the kids with fresh eyes at some point. In the mean time I need to know how to move forward and really give the situation some breathing space. This is not healthy anymore. I have lost my self esteem and ability to think clearly. I don't want to held at the door step seeing my kids looking at me and not being able to pick them up.

My M is the last thing I am thinking about right now. Those kids would have been the gateway to my W's heart but whilst my D8 is so full of resentment towards me, I can only do the best thing for now.