I understand your feelings that if she moves you might lose everything and I know it is hard, but that is out of your control right now so you need to focus on what you can control. Worrying about what might happen months from now is not always helpful, unless you are using that to plan your goals and how you will get to them. Focus on what you have the power to control.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
