I definitely do have to keep on moving forward. I am. I'm just sadly and sluggishly doing it. Thanks Cadet, I'm trying to remember I am awesome and my awesomeness isn't defined by the rejection of a guy.
Wii, I am totally obsessing. But I totally cannot even run through what I did wrong. Because, gosh darnit, I actually did just about everything right. Right up until I told I needed commitment to making this work else I couldn't do it anymore. It's the rejection. It's the truth. It's kicking my butt more this time because I really cared.
Yup, you nailed it. Ever since I stop grieving ex, got my life together, forgiven and accepted everything, that something that is missing is blaring like a large neon sign in my heart. Not just anyone can fill it either. I thought I found the love that would. Realizing I didn't is rough. And the fact I am missing him more than I thought and he appears to not be missing me at all has kicked my ego's and hearts butt.
Just something else to get through. I appreciate everyone's kind words and listening to me ramble like a lunatic.
