The breadth your emotional evolution is wonderful. Your consciousness is drifting through the universe in this vessel called Jelly. There have been calm seas, turbulent seas, hot days and rainy nights. All these experiences offer your consciousness the insight that these emotions are non dualistic in nature Jelly. They are not opposites but all in relationship together for your consciousness to experience. Lama Yeshe explained it this way and it helped me finally see it.
Lama Yeshe: When you contemplate your own consciousness with intense awareness, leaving aside all thoughts of good and bad, you are automatically led to the experience of non-duality. How is this possible? Think of it like this: the clean clear blue sky is like consciousness, while the smoke and pollution pumped into the sky are like the unnatural, artificial concepts manufactured by ego-grasping ignorance. Now, even though we say the pollutants are contaminating the atmosphere, the sky itself never really becomes contaminated by the pollution. The sky and the pollution each retain their own characteristic nature. In other words, on a fundamental level the sky remains unaffected no matter how much toxic energy enters it. The proof of this is that when conditions change, the sky can become clear once again. In the same way, no matter how many problems maybe created by artificial ego concepts, they never affect the clean clear nature of our consciousness itself. From the relative point of view, our consciousness remains pure because its clear nature never becomes mixed with the nature of confusion.
Jelly, don't confuse your experiences with your consciousness. You are more then emotion and more then a physical vessel. You are a beautiful jewel of consciousness.
