Need practical ideas to aid my 180/Last Resort.WAW

[bigybiz]

The last couple of days have been big for me. I gave up/let go on a couple of "weapons" I had ready for the big fight - when it comes. I realized that so long as I was ready to use those "weapons" I was not going to be forgiving, healing etc. Therefore, how can I expect her to be. I'm sure a lawyer and the rest of the world would have told me I'm nuts - but it's me who has to sleep in my skin.

If control is an issue for me/us so to let go of something like this (it's physically gone too) is huge for me. There is no bringing it back. I don't regret it.

So that was about me - not her. She does not know, and may never know.