So my wife calls a few minutes ago to see how she is doing. She then starts to apologize to me for doing this and creating this situation because she knows it will be hard, and she does not really want to do it, but she does not know what else to do. She then says that she wishes she did not have too do it, but she can't just keep waiting and wishing and hoping and praying that things can be as she wants them. She apologizes again and then says, but anyway I'll see you when I get home. I wanted desperately to say something, but I hesitated, and then chose not to reply because I don't want to get into a conversation and get false hope. I know that actions are more important than words and I know that I need to stay focused on being who I should be so that she can see and do what she feels is best for her.
Was this the right thing to do? I am still unsure of what she is referring to about the last 10 years of what she is "wishing for, hoping for and praying for." She has told me several times that I should just know. Unfortunately my list of things that I think I should just know is about 2 lifetimes worth of things as my eyes have been opened to the light since reading Michelle's book and many other relationship, husband and father information materials.
I went hugged my daughter as tight as I could and she asked me if I was thinking of Mom again. That brought a tear to my eye, but then my baby, said stop thinking of mom, you are taking care of us just fine. What an angel she is.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
