Aaaand the anniversary ring is off! So yesterday, the W and I were sitting at the table talking about our S4 who was recently diagnosed with Autism. I get all teary-eyed because it still hurts, and then the W starts a conversation where she says "I know I've told you that I get freaked out by you all of a sudden being religious and I don'the need to tell you this but, I just wanted to say that the last few months have been hard for you and you could have dealt with it in different ways. You could have turned to alcohol, drugs or women but"...and then her Mom walks in and my W says "AW man! It's an important conversation, We will finish this later." We never did and I never asked, I will let her come to me when she is ready. I have a feeling that she is going to praise me for handling things the way I have. Which is awesome because it is the first step towards not being so selfish and combined with wearing the ring maybe shows that she is starting to come around? Yesterday she talked to me about how she was feeling and she said that in regards to our relationship, she is just going to go with the flow. If it floats it floats and if it sinks it sinks. She said there would be days where she is talkative and there will be days where she will just ignore me and leave and take time to drive and think and cry. I just listened and validated.
