Kgirl, I give you many props because you were true to yourself with your wants and needs, as was I. That is something I do not regret, and I hope you don't either. I hoped he would want to figure this out together, but he didn't.
I have to stop myself everyday from telling him that I miss him. It's not easy. And a huge 180 for me. This was the first guy since exH, and probably more so than exH that I became truly intimate with. And I don't mean that sex wise. We were both completely ourselves together and completely comfortable with it. he felt the same way. It's hard to move forward when you get that with someone. I wish like hell he would straighten his crap out and want to be with me. Wishful thinking though. But while I wish that, I am probably not ready to move on.
Aside from that something weird happened yesterday at Easter. A little back story. My dad and mom split when I was 17. long story behind it, but shortly after he began an R with a coworker. Which he told me started after my mom. My mom suspected it was happening sooner. My dad says no, but it was atleast an EA. Well, yesterday relatives visiting dated their relationship in a conversation. It was before my dad left my mom. They got caught red handed. While my mom was mentally ill, I understand her hurt. I wish I could say sorry to her somehow. But, it still doesn't make me love my dad and stepmom any less.
