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[Mona52]

My h texted me and asked me to pay for the D. Over the weekend I told him I was dropping off the money for the D. He asked if i could buy him 2 packs of ciggs as well.

I did, but I am done. I know I am done because I dont even feel bad about any of it.

H texted me on Sunday to say Happy Easter and I did not really care. I replied Happy Easter and told him to have a good day at work and went about my day.

He should go in and file the D papers any minute now, so I am hoping for a text soon saying the divorce is filed. I paid the extra money to expedite it and waive the waiting period.

I have something working and I dont want my H to take any of it from me, so I really need the d to go through asap or he could possibly sue me and get more money from me.

I am not stealing anything from him. I did research, and I may win an award. He does not deserve this, it is not his.

I am also a little worried he will find out I work three jobs now and take me in for spousal support. I only work these jobs because he gives me next to nothing for child support. But, if he takes me in, he will win i think.

So I neeeeeed this divorce to be done and over. This waiting is making me so anxious. I have a constant knot in my belly, like I played hookie from school and I dont want my parents to find out.

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My new guy is also causing a bit of stress on me. That sounds selfish to say once I tell you what is wrong, but I am not being selfish to him. I come here to be selfish

He is suffering from depression. He gets help and leads a normal life because he has learned to manage it properly. However... in the week all three of his kids had major issues he had to deal with. His 16 year old is in trouble with the magistrate, his D19 could not take her driver's text due to a mental breakdown on the day of the test where she could not stop crying and just said over and over to him "Help me daddy, I am just so sad all of the time. Help me daddy".

Then he had major issues with his supervisors at work and was stressed out completely.

And just when he thought nothing else could go wrong, his D23 found her bf dead on her sofa from a heroine overdose. From what I understand he was not a drug addict and he was a saint to his D. He got up every morning and made her coffee, even when he was sick. He put her first in all things and he was so good for her. Everyone loved him and his death is tragic for all involved.

my new guy may be able to keep his depression under control in a normal, every day setting, but this has all spiraled him quickly into being so sad.

Thanks to DB I think I am able to navigate these waters and not drown in them. I understand why he is sad, and I also understand I cant fix ANY of his problems. I cant pull him out of a depression.

I am offering him support by letting him know I will listen if he needs to talk. I have asked him a few questions to try and get him to open up, but not a lot. This is his issue to deal with and I cant deal with it for him. So I am letting him know I am here, but I have pulled my focus way back to myself.

The best thing I can do for him to to take care of myself and stay happy myself. When he is ready to join me, I am here, but I cant go where he is.