I feel really gross after spending the Saturday with a divorce lawyer. Not something that I ever imagined doing in my life, but at this point space is needed and she will not move out until she has "her money" as she calls it. I learned more about divorce proceedings and the ugliness of it than I ever wanted to know. The good was that this lawyer is really focused on the family unit and the benefits of a good set up to take care of my daughters and maintain a working parental relationship with my W afterwards.
Yesterday I sat down with the W and went through the awful experience of actually having a conversation that was focused on how to divide time up with my youngest daughter. This is the part that hurts the most. My baby girl should not have to go through this and it really hurts. I can handle the GAL for myself but knowing of the many challenges that my D5 will go through just feels like an ongoing sucker punch over and over. And to make it more difficult, is that she is more engaged in this planning than any of our previous family and relationship planning in recent memory.
Anyhow I will find the strength and I will figure out how to take care of her and I will work on making myself a person that she will regret leaving and I will place hope and faith in the future as that is al I can do now.
Thank you all for the support and words of encouragement so far. I have never participated in an online forum of any kind and was nervous to do so here, but I do not regret doing so.
God bless all of you that are in this difficult situation and those that have survived it and are supporting us.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
