What else am I supposed to do? I'm fighting for my relationship with everything I've got.
Not sure if you saw my post as it was on page 11 of your closed thread. Pasting it below. I seem to echo some of the others. Not saying it's easy, or that you are doing it wrong if you think of her or have feelings. But you can't cling anymore. If you need help understanding the difference between standing vs. fighting, and giving up vs. moving forward, ask away.
How can you expect WW to let go of OW if you can't let go of WW?
Act with the character and strength you wish she had. If you can't do it you have no right to expect it from her. Continue in this love triangle and she's not to blame.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15