NYGal: hopeful? Not so much

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Meanwhile I turn friggin 60 in 3 days. Will W just ignore it? The Gays of Our Lives. Tune in tomorrow.

Bwahaha.
Sorry - I know how you feel, I wish i didn't. My W has somehow managed to make me feel old, something I was coping just fine with 5 months ago.

You? You ran 5 miles? Yeah, make me feel even older.

This is BS though - your WW knows exactly what she's doing, and she's playing you. You're letting her. If she wants to be with you she wants to be with you, end of story. But she's cake eating and stringing you along. If she wanted, she could walk away from the OW tomorrow. Tonight. But look who it is she chose to walk away from.

In a way I'm glad I've cut off communication entirely. On one hand, it means that there's no potential of moving forward. On the other, it means she can only dole out so much torture.

Doesn't matter if your W remembers your B-Day or not. Seriously, weigh them both the same. Consider it a coin toss on her part, and put no more value in it than that.

Go out, have a fan-frickin-tastic birthday. Don't look back. Think of right now, live in the moment. Don't worry about yesterday, don't think about tomorrow. I know you and your dear friend can make a great time of it.