Hello Rouky mi princesa! The word from my last CT scan is that I have a spot on my lung and one on a rib but they are both too small to biopsy. They are going to look at it again in six months and see if they have done anything. I feel very confident about it and whatever happens I am going to be OK. Just another chapter in my life. My therapist was very happy with my progress and agrees that I need to move forward on my own for a while. I'm leaving open the possibility of having to see her more especially when the divorce comes down.
Rouky I am your rock and I will always be here for you when you are down. Don't be jealous because you are always my number one girl! Those awful waffles are for you only :-) Thank you for getting me to this point and for always making me feel loved in spite of the very tough situation that you are in. It is very telling that you have concern for others in the midst of your pain. There are very few people out there who can rise to your standard. Meanwhile Maple syrup production continues............
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
Oh Rouky I am so happy that you checked on me today! Maple syrup production is going well. I will save a bottle for you. I hope that you have had a good week and are having a great weekend. Are you ready to come to the US yet? How is your family?
I am doing so much better these days. Just feeling somewhat normal is boosting my moral. The weather has been wonderful and being out in the sunshine makes me feel about as good as a note from you. I am going to hang out with my siblings tomorrow and going to violin class with S13 Sunday. Tell me about your weekend. How long is your vacation this summer? Do you plan to get away at all? Maybe go back to France? I'll meet you there!
Again it is great to hear from you Rouky and I pray that you are feeling a little peace. I don't want to be happy if you are not. Here for you always, Mark
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
You still have to be happy for you and no one else. I can't wait to try your Maple syrup as I'm sure it will delicious :-) Like you I'm starting to feel somewhat normal and I have decided not be on the site so often as I feel that reading the pain of the newcomers is somewhat keeping my pain raw and I need to move on with my life. Despite saying that know that you are always in my mind and I hope that one day we both will be able to meet and laugh about how we came to support each other.
Hi Rouky I am doing very well thank you. I still have some tough moments but they are fewer and farther between. My patience has returned and I am very grateful for that. I am very much enjoying the improving weather and the sunshine. My STBXW is losing her mind I think. I don't understand her anger as all of this was her doing. She is probably worried that this is going to cost her money. It is the only thing that ever caused her to get emotional in all the years that I have known her. I am getting appraisals for the real estate that we own and perhaps things will move forward with the divorce. I am still leaving that in my attorney's hands as I am leaving my cancer in the Lord's hands. My health I would say is very good. I am back to pre-cancer levels at the gym. On the leg press I am at 300lbs. My first attempt seven months ago I could barely do 100. My chest and arms are starting to fill out and my stomach has definition. I love it and will stay focused on improving my physical conditioning.
So how are things with you Rouky? I sent you a message over on your post. How is your family? Are your children adjusting to their new life? My S13 seems to be doing much better. I think that he needed to see me doing well. I have had my other two sons with me the last two weekends and I have really enjoyed it. Is your husband still a Jack A$$? What a fool that man is. If I could I would be in the UK right now begging you to just give me one date. You are very unique and there is something very good coming for you. We have to remember that we are good people and we are loved and life will be much better going forward.
I hope to hear from you again and I am forever grateful for all of your support and for always making me feel like something more than a total failure. If I could repay you with my life it would not be enough for what you have done for me. God Bless you Rouky and please stay in touch!
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
Thanks God you replied I was about to send the research rescue your way. I thought you had given up on us :-). No need to beg for a date, I would grant it with both arms.
I'm so proud that you are back to pre-cancer levels. I honestly admire your strength to go through cancer and betrayal. You're my hero :-)
I thought of you today as I sat down in my garden, paused for a minute and just listened to the birds and surrounding sounds. I understand why you love nature. I was brought up in a town in a flat. It's only now that I realise that nature is beautiful and I understand why my STBXH wanted to move back into a village.
I'm happy to hear that your son is doing better, like us they need time to adjust to the situation. With a dad like you, he hsas nothing to worry about :-)
Rouky I am laughing because I was praying that you were still reading the posts here and had not forgotten about me. I know I am kind of silly but you are such a big part of my life. I am standing in the room of acceptance now and excited about what comes next. Like you I still love my ex but I know that she does not return the love and that it is over. She is a fool but who am I to say? Thank God in heaven you are still here. Love Mark
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
OK here's the deal. I was off work today for Good Friday and did a little cleaning around the house and went to the gym. I have officially passed the weight limits that I was at pre-cancer. While I am pretty sore I have fought my way through the toughest physical test that I will probably ever face. I am very close to being in the best shape of my life and I get better every day. I also have great clarity about my situation and marriage and my ex. I am gradually accepting that this is her screw up and that there is nothing I could have done to prevent it. Feeling good physically is helping me mentally. I am taking a break from my counseling and at this point I feel pretty strong. I have complete awareness of the huge number of very good and caring people in my life and what amazing children I have raised. I thank God for all of the prayers and ask that you all continue to pray for me. The Lord has something amazing in store for me and I have to be patient and wait for his time. I know that there is no issue of being alone and that I will be much more careful and selective in my next wife. Going out to listen to some Blues tonight and hang with some of the special people in my life including my children. There is very little else that I could ask for and I am humbled by it all. Thank you Lord for the recovery that you have helped me to achieve and thank you everyone for caring!
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
