I'm heading over to my W's apartment today to get the emotional hand written letter (understanding the pain I caused her in the marriage with an apology) that I gave her last week for her birthday.
* It adds fuel to the wimpy, wanting husband problem. * She doesn't "deserve" it while still sleeping with OM. * Sandi's Rule: Get your respect back. * Symbolic of my having balls, detaching, and soon GAL.
I just don't want it hanging around out there with her. I need to take a counter measure with the damage this pathetic letter is causing. Her respect (or complete lack of) for me is fueled by it. This is just business... not showing any emotions to her even when she tries to test me. Wish I found these rules prior to writing her that letter. I think their A is at it's peak. They're all but out in the open now with the families and seeing each other as much as they can be now.
***** This is my final letting go step. Once I get my pathetic letter back, I'm full steam ahead with focusing on MY LIFE. I'm 2 months into this doing it "Nice Guy" way. I would have been more effect in the beginning with Divorce Busting and the Sandi's Rules, but is it too late or last resort now?
