My story job 9140 (3)

[Jb9140]

I'm getting myself and the boys ready for Easter church service, and she's packing up stuff for her move Friday. If you would have asked me if this would have been happening a few years ago, I would have said you were crazy. Boy how things change. This is definitely another low point, but I'm keeping a smile and acting "As If". I know a few of you are a few weeks ahead of me in this separation phase. I hope to be able to lean on your experience moving forward. Thanks in advance.

[daybyday]

I am heading to service myself. My first time back in years. It kind of tells you where your W mind is at right now doesnt it. Makes you just shake your head and ask "who is this woman?"

[Melo]

Just got out of service. My W who was very, very religious is at the house, she barely got up to be with the kids this morning. I literally can't believe it myself.

[Jb9140]

This is so counter intuitive. It's amazing how much I still want to beg and plead for my wife to stay as separation day is getting closer April 1st. Please pray that I'll have the strength to smile and say good-bye with class.

[Sparkls]

I completely get where your coming from Jb. I'm at the "desperately wanting to beg them to come back" phase.
I keep trying to just tell myself that nothing is permanent and a move can just as easily be undone when/if she sees that this isn't really what she wants.

Hang in there. We'll get through this. And who knows whats waiting on the other side, but we can only really go up, right? The worst has already happened. (if only I could get my hear to believe that some days)

[Jb9140]

Just trying to get thoughts down. Wife is moving out Friday. I've been so consumed with the fear of losing my wife, that I don't really know if I've thought about the impact of not seeing my children everyday is going to hurt like hell. I know I can call them whenever I want, but I'm going with the LRT and need to keep Dim for awhile. I feel like this is going to be at the expense of my Children. Feeling Guilty.....

[pinn]

Hi JB,

Keep your head up. I think lots and lots of people on here have been in your situation so I am hoping they can offer you some advice. Enjoy the time you do get to spend with them.

[Jb9140]

I'm trying to understand WW feeling the loss once she moves out. The only thing I see her possible missing is the kids, when she doesn't have them. She's already installed software on their Kindle fires, so that she can chat with them when ever she's not there. I know I'm not supposed to use the kids, but I feel like she setting herself up, so she won't have immediate consequences for leaving. any thoughts?

[daybyday]

JMHO but if its your turn with the kids, it's your turn. Not hers to weasel in on your time. That really sounds like cake eating big time. I, myself wouldn't allow that.

[Jb9140]

^^^^^