Way Too Late Pt 3

[TimR]

1313 you know I can appreciate right where you are at, that feeling that not only did they take away our best friend and lover but our very soul. There is nothing I or anyone could say to you to ease that pain. However, I promise you she did not get your soul. 1313 is still in there somewhere, bruised battered and beaten but he is in there and you can take care of him. Money is only money, property is only property and if someone can hurt you that bad and not think twice about it, maybe they are not worth fighting for... only you can make that decision. She is an idiot for leaving you, but you are in charge of you and you have to find your happiness. Maybe that is taking care of your mother, she took care of you at the beginning of your life. Maybe it is those few minutes free, alone when you can decompress or visits with friends. I do not know what changed my mind... maybe it was going out with friends, maybe it was coming home one night and not stepping on any eggshells, maybe the pain got to much and like my IC told me a healthy organism will move away from pain, or maybe it was some of the looks I caught at the gym that made me feel confident. But you have to find what works for you and trust me it is out there. I still think of WW a lot but the pain is no longer associated with those thoughts. Now it is pity, I pity the person she is, what she is going to have to go through to better herself, and I pity how she is going to feel when she realizes what she left behind. Nothing I can do about that but pray for her.

Your WW is going to be in the same boat. Yes it may seem like she is having a great time making you miserable but she will pay the price. I never saw my mom shed a tear leaving my father, I am rather certain my WW did not as well, but I know from speaking with her over 20 odd years after the fact that there is not a day that goes by my mother does not regret that decision. My WW will be the same way I am sure and that makes me sad for her. Your WW will also have to live with that regret. If there is one thing I learned from this board is everyone is a class act that no matter how much they have improved, at the time their S walked out on them, they were already the type of person only a fool would leave. Enjoy your Easter buddy, push the pain aside and just like Christ your soul will be resurrected too.