Ick. H just TM again asking about tomorrow, if any plans he can join, anything he can bring? I told him, only thing planned is egg hunt when S wakes up, that we will be home all day, and he is welcome. He asked what time the egg hunt is. (He doesn't know? We have only done this every year) I told him S usually wakes around 7. I added he can come hide the eggs and sleep with S so I can sleep! Ha ha. Or I can try to make S wait... H answered shoot, he was already cozy in bed and should have asked earlier because he would have done that. He said he will try to be here early. I told him, see him then if he makes it....S says he is doing the hunt when he wakes up. If daddy is not here, he can just show him what he got.
Then, group TM by MIL, asking H if this (videos with the drone) is going to be his stress reliever. Stress??? The man has no responsibilities other than going to work each day...she irritates me so much. Especially to include me in that group TM.
I will not, will not, let H or his family change my mood. I am excited about tomorrow morning, it's almost like Christmas for us, and I don't care if H makes it or not. It is his loss, completely. I just have this feeling he will show up, late and scattered, disruptive....I suppose at some point I will be in a place to do this stuff separately. Not there yet, but feeling closer. I would so love to have it, just S and I, but I do it for S, I want him to have family memories, not separated memories. Does that make sense? However, I am starting to wonder if H constant drama and sometimes flakiness with joining us is causing more damage than if he just wasn't here....we will see how it goes tomorrow.
