Have you ever been to the fair and rode the tilt a whirl? It is my least favorite ride. I get dizzy,feel like I will vomit, can't wait until it is over. Kind of how I feel about my D sometimes.
Nothing much is happening.. Something in H switched this last week. Maybe he can tell I'm detaching. We switched roles.
I'm distant, gal, limited contact..just really trying to get over it all and be happy while life goes on.
Lately he is complimenting me, being caring, thanking me, respecting boundaries ( except he tries to hug me still) etc.
Maybe I'm really detached. I Have embraced and accepted that this is my life.Doesn't matter What I want. Doesn't matter What I think. All that matters is I'm doing What is best for me and my children right now.
I know He could give me papers tomorrow, I would live. I Have money, job, place to live, kids, family,friends, you guys.
I don't accept his love. Confuses me sometimes but I just accept that while He is with the ow it is either him trying to butter me up for divorce, him trying to see What I'm up to or just trying to be civil co parents.
