This is it as life goes on

[shotgun]

I wish that I could be of some help Rouky. You are having a rough couple of days but next week things will improve for you. The holidays always bring out extra emotion and pain and sadly we have no choice but to go through it. Are you still in counseling? Does she know about the ups and downs you go through? When I was having the hardest time I would go to see my therapist more frequently. In the end I was only seeing her once a month.

I wish that you were here to try my Maple syrup. I could also use some help in the yard. I have a big muddy mess from the septic system that I had put in a year ago. I am going to grade it off and plant grass on it. A lot of shoveling to do though so if you have a couple of free days...............

I get so much strength from hearing the songs of the birds and it helps me to realize that all of this is part of nature and that life will go on after the pain of all of this softens. My intention is to be outside every possible moment for a couple of months and try to get my place looking beautiful. When do you move into the new house? Getting busy with that will take your mind off of some things.

Here's to you having a better week Rouky and please try to get out and socialize a little. Take a long walk when you can and get plenty of exercise. I have found the group that I do yoga with to be quite the support system. It is always so positive there and all of us face challenges in one way or another. Praying for you always.