Thank you Sandi. I needed your post. I know that filling is not what I want. I just want this pain to go away, but that's not going to happen with either scenario. You are right, it will be hard not to just take her back right away if she is still WW and just having a hard time in the real world.
The gift of time is so true. I need to use this time to become stronger, more confident in myself and truly believe that I deserve better so if/when the day comes I can recognize if she is really willing to do anything for the M and not just convince myself that she is.
This is out of my control. I can only control myself. People can change if they want to, and maybe this is the new her or maybe this is just her right now. Maybe the future her will be a better wife, mother, friend, partner, etc. from this experience. Who knows. I just need to DB, improve myself, work on my issues and keep the door open while regaining her respect. That way my next R (w/wo her) WILL be better.
"It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!" <--So true!
