Spending until Tuesday at home with my parents visiting us. S has gone for a coffee with W. He told me he suggested meeting up with her because she is going away for a few days. Despite all my attempts to detach it still hurts to think of her away with OM, probably because she had a holiday with him last year behind my back. Brings back painful memories I suppose and makes me feel a little bitter she can be off enjoying herself after everything. I'm at home worrying about a broken washing machine! NC for over a week now. She won't want to be in touch while parents here. Great to have parents here with us but in a strange way it just reminds what I miss about being a couple. Feeling pessimistic and falling into the old traps of reliving the past and speculating about a lonely future. See no chance of restarting R with W.
