Saturday morning and I am here with the boys S7,4. My W is upstairs in my D11's room dorking around on her phone, like a teenager. I am feeling ok, not great, not terrible. I was wishing I could just hold my wife last night. Nothing physical, just sleep next to her and have her in my arms. I think one of my many barriers to successfully DBing is my lack of confidence/respect for myself. I am my wife's BFF. In my mind it's because I want her to see that we can have fun and be friends and then lovers. However she has no desire for that or for me. She is comfortable. I recently read an article on divorce in Men's Health magazine and it scared the he11 out of me. In it the guy was blindsided by his W wanting a D and he pined over her. They physically seperated and while the kids were unhappy, he continued to be there for his W. He would even watch the kids at her house while she went on a date with her new BF, and would sit and talk to her on the couch afterwards!! I would never want to get to that point and could totally see myself unwittingly doing so. I need to grow a pair, as my cousin always says "Mel you are all brains and no balls." Otherwise my W will never respect me and I won't respect myself.
