He says things like "It's my [his] fault that you never had a baby. I took that away from you." And he seems so sincere. He says, "I am so afraid that you have wasted your life on me. That I have stolen it away." At one point he said, "I think about what do I do when one of the kids [niece/nephew] says 'she has a boyfriend'?" And he seems genuinely distraught.
He has been working a lot lately, and yesterday was the first day he was off in forever. So last night he takes shower, takes a Xanax, and goes to bed at 7pm. My biggest fear this morning was that he would wake up with a clear head and say, " Now I can think clearly, and I really don't want to try this."
He didn't, but then again, he never wants to argue or have a confrontation before going to work. So it may come tonight.
