No End in Sight

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...I am going running sometime with new friend and we have discussed dating. BEFORE you all chime in to tell me what a BAD IDEA that is let me tell you the talk was we are not ready to date but being friends could be a start, regardless there are still issues that need to be considered and resolved before any of that happens. But just a run would be good... for now, maybe forever.

Tim - doesn't matter, even just discussing is healthy regardless of what happens. Good for you. Date, don't date, whatever. It means you've talked about it - and it'll be even easier down the road.

Yeah, I could say where I'm at is more numb emptiness mixed with bouts of anger, and the occasional soul crushing pain - but that's when I think about how long it's been since I've seen my pup. Going through all the old photos hasn't helped any - it just ticks me off. It makes me want to punish the WW to a point - but even as mad as I get I wouldn't take the dog away from her 100%, it's doing the dog wrong.

Knowing the W was with the OM for - well it appears even a few days longer than she had scheduled vacation - just makes me sad, but it's not like it was a couple of months ago. I guess things went better than planned. BFD. I was more concerned about the dog and who had her. You know, for a service dog that she can't be without for any time at all.

But you're right Tim. We fell in love with people who are bad for us, and bad for them. They're damaged goods. The type of people we are wants to help them - and that only repulses them all the more.

They are so selfish, so wrapped up in the now, in feeling good this second, that they're willing to sacrifice the well-being and even the futures of those who they claim to love. It's really pathetic when you get down to it. Your S's are literally going to have to have therapy years from now because of what your WW is doing right now.

2 months ago I would have jumped at the W asking to get stuff out of the garage. A chance to see her! A chance to talk to her!

Now? Meh, don't call me if you break a nail. Suggest you wear gloves, or have your fat jerk boyfriend move it all while you supervise. Guess he wants room for his BMW. Just don't touch my motorcycle you creeps.