WED AFTERNOON: Oh man, this is weird. I was just sitting here and I browsed over to Michelle's articles and read something about "spending time together" and I just felt this rush of despair roll over me. There was something in there that triggered an extremely negative reaction in me and I'm not certain what it is. I think it has to do with the fact that my W does not prioritize "alone time together" or schedule them. Once again, I guess I just realized how disinterested she is in spending time with me. I must be one irritating a-hole. Maybe my reality is that my W can't stand to spend time with me, that I'm an ugly, boring dork. Maybe if she confronted her fears, she would decide to leave me. Oh man I feel like sh!t now. I would absolutely love it if she would open her calendar, pick some dates, find a babysitter, and make it happen. The only times we go out is when we are invited to a wedding or charity function. On other opportunities to be together, she wants to go to the movies. Another indicator that she doesn't like to talk to me. Oh man, I don't know what to do. I'm really hurting right now because this is trait I've been trying to fix all my life. I've even seen shrinks who say it's part of a different type of brain-wiring I have.
Anywhere is walking distance if you have the time
-Steven Wright
